“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

—  Philippians 4:6-7

Since my cancer diagnosis, I oftentimes find myself feeling anxious about the future and what twists and turns may lay ahead on this journey. Over the last eight months, I have learned that my previous prayer life was lacking and that His peace really does transcend all understanding.

From the time the words “it’s cancer” was spoken to now, God has poured His peace into my life. There have been times when I wanted to drown in worry and anxiousness, but each time God’s peace prevailed. He pulled me out of the depths of despair and has fought this battle for me.

I am now halfway through chemo. I will have my 9th treatment this afternoon and I can honestly say that I have been blessed through each one. God is definitely in the details. When I started the 12 weekly Taxol treatments five weeks ago, I thought they would be a breeze. The doctor had told me these treatments were easier than the AC. However, for me that wasn’t the case. The hand and foot syndrome got worse with each treatment making it hard to walk or use my hands for 2-3 days after each treatment. At that point, I wasn’t sure how I would make it through the remaining treatments.

When I saw the nurse practitioner right before the fourth treatment she took one look at my hands and immediately said I couldn’t take the Taxol again. She said they could put me on Abraxane, which is in the same family as Taxol, but has a different carrier. Not gonna lie, I was a little apprehensive. I knew that with TNBC, I needed strong doses of chemo and everything I had read said Taxol was the standard of care. I was also disappointed that I would have to skip that week’s treatment, which would extend my chemo treatments. I was so looking forward to December 7. When I got home, I immediately started researching Abraxane and quickly realized I should never question the Lord’s plans.

I learned that Abraxane is used for late stage metastatic breast cancer (among other types of cancers). I’m still thankful that we caught mine early enough, and I pray fervently that it never comes back, but I can’t help but think God and His infinite wisdom was at work again. He is protecting me with this new drug, which according to the patient education nurse is actually the better drug. Some of the side effects are the same, but overall it is better on your body.

I do have some neuropathy in my fingers, but it has lessened since I started the Abraxane treatments. I am praying that it doesn’t get any worse over the next 8 weeks.

Again, I can’t thank you enough for walking this journey with me and lifting me up to our Father. He is truly the source of my strength on this journey.

Prayer Points for Today:

• That the Abraxane will work in killing any rogue cancer cells
• That my numbers will come back up after each treatment
• That the side effects will be minimal especially the neuropathy