I’m headed back into surgery today. My 4th since April 7. My left incision is stubbornly not wanting to heal, so my plastic surgeon is going back in to drain the expander and close it back up hoping that it will heal. Unfortunately, I will have another drain (or two). Ugh!!! If this doesn’t work, he will take the expander out and I’ll have to revisit the reconstruction sometime next year.

I’m clinging to Psalm 56:3: When I am afraid, I will put my trust in You. The Lord has been so faithful throughout this journey, and I am grateful even when I don’t understand. I am putting my hope and trust in Him.

Satan is also on the attack…my mind has not been able to shut down since the surgery was scheduled yesterday. You see, this surgery also means that my chemo will be delayed. I’m not gonna lie, this scares me. I have an aggressive cancer and chemo is the only thing it responds to, so the longer I wait, the more my recurrence chance goes up. I know that God’s timing is perfect, but my human side is rebelling. I’ve never been a very patient person.

Prayer Points for Today

• Pray for the surgeon and all medical personnel
• Pray for strength and endurance (I’m tired of the anesthesia and antibiotics.)
• Pray for fast healing so that I can begin chemo