Even though I didn’t get the news I hoped for today, Lamentations 3:22-23 reminds me that God’s love, faithfulness and mercy never end! Holding strong to these promises.

I don’t even know where to begin…I’m numb, shocked, scared, and surprisingly at peace. The doctor dropped a bombshell today…I have Triple Negative Breast Cancer, a very aggressive breast cancer. They rate tumors on a scale of 1 to 3…mine was a 3. I am praising the Lord that is only Stage 1 because the tumor is less than 2 cm and it has not spread, but I have a lot of decisions to make and I am praying for wisdom.

My options at this point include chemotherapy and surgery. Since the tumor is small, I will have surgery first. My surgical options include lumpectomy, mastectomy or double mastectomy. When the doctor writes that there is a survival benefit in having a double mastectomy, you pay attention. I have a lot of thinking and praying to do. The doctor ordered a DNA test to see if I have the mutated BRCA 1 or 2 gene. If that comes back positive, then there is no question about the double mastectomy. I also have an appointment to see a plastic surgeon. Wow! This is all a little surreal.

My human side wants to freak out. I mean really freak out! My mind is whirling with questions that I don’t know how to answer. I’m a planner by nature and I like to be in control of things and this is not something I can control or plan. How do you schedule cancer? I would like to be petulant child right now and scream “I don’t want to.” But, here we are and I am trusting that the Lord will give me strength and courage to get through this journey with TNBC.

The Lord has been so faithful. My goal is focus on Him rather than the circumstances. He is in control, not me. Already this journey has drawn me closer to Him ad for that I am thankful.

Prayer Points for Today…

• Wisdom
• Strength and Courage
• God’s Will to be done